I'm here...now what?

So this is my first official post on the blogspot. I used xanga ages ago and maybe someday will transfer my posts from there. For now, blogspot will be my blogger home.

Now the real reason for the post. I made it back to DC! I spent close to a month in Fresno after finishing my internship. My family was warm and loving--most of the time. I had all the comforts of a stocked fridge, a warm, soft bed, internet at my fingertips (the office becomes my bedroom when I'm home), and wonderful friends. I was beginning to doubt if DC was the right place for me at this time when there are so many good things for me in Fresno too.

I've been doing all the normal things to help make a decision, i.e. praying, pondering, pro and con lists, asking everyone I know for their opinion. It's frustrating after doing all that to still have no idea if what you are doing is right. I had no reason to go, but I had no reason not to be here, so...here I am! I'm jobless and living in Fairfax for the moment.

Fairfax is not the ideal place to live since I do not have a car. I have to take a bus just to get to the metro station, which is the last station on the line. I won't be here long--it's only temporary. I have to keep telling myself that so I don't go crazy. Well, I'm already crazy, but I have to at least feign sanity.

For some reason a scene from the movie Elf just popped into my mind. Since I live my life through movies and music, I'll share the scene. Buddy the Elf is in Gimble's store and sings--to the chagrin of the manager--so Jovie can see that she can sing anywhere. "I'm singing/I'm in a store/and I'm siiiiiingiiiiing!/I'm in a store/and I'm siiiiiingiiiiing!" I'm not sure why I thought of that. I sing when I'm happy and I suppose I can sing anywhere too. Wow, that's corny.

beck