I Needed That

"Remember that God often provides his blessings through the compassionate and timely response of another." --Elder Jeffrey R. Holland

Today I was mortified to find that I made not one but four hasty mistakes at work in the last week. The first three were fixable. The last one...not so much. I found out about the last one just a little while ago. Of course we all make mistakes, but some are the big, juicy kind that make a big mess.

The point of this post is not to go on about how retarded and absent-minded I can be while trying to get things done quickly, though both are true. The point of this post is to share what happened after my slight meltdown. It was an encouraging and uplifting moment.

I updated my facebook status since I happened to be online. Then I called my mom and recounted what I could of the story. She is always there for me, but she couldn't connect in the way I needed to about this situation. When I finished the phone conversation and wiped away a few tears, I noticed a text message from my friend in California in response to my status. He has been the best and oldest long distance friend I have had outside of immediate family. I'm not sure that I can give him credit for feeling inspired by the Holy Ghost to check on me since he's not LDS (but maybe he can still receive that inspiration?), however, I can give him credit for being such a good friend! I was feeling alone and wondering who on earth I could talk to about this and who on earth would care. Yes, I'm still crying about it after texting him, but I feel loved and cared for. Is that so bizarre? I'm not sure why I need to feel the assurance that someone cares for me. I've been trying so hard to just care for myself, but it doesn't work. People need to care for each other and raise each other up.

Okay, I'm fine now, I promise.

beck